As I sit here and type this my almost 3 year old is in his room watching a show on net-flix and I kind of miss him clinging to me. I guess I wanted some quiet time until I actually got it. He is of course destroying his bedroom and almost every toy he has is in the floor , but as I pick them up for the countless number of times today, I love that my arms are full of toys and my hair is a mess and I am exhausted ! These are the days some moms dread, but me I truly treasure them. I wonder if this is why I had to endure the fertility issues, so that I would truly appreciate what a gift my so is to me.

Potty Blues

The potty training isn't going well . It's been more than a week and I am only seeing minor signs that it's working. I guess I need to work just a little more diligently at the process and hope for better outcome in a few more days !
 Getting ready this week for our week at the beach, wondering how the potty process is gonna be while we are away from home in a place he's not used to , as well as traveling to the condo--

Potty Training FAIL

I am working on potty training and I feel like such a huge failure, he will be THREE in a few weeks and I feel like he should already be using the potty, he just now got to the point that he will actually sit on the potty without clothing on, he has peed in there a few times and I did a super huge happy potty dance , which he really loved !! But I guess I am being lazy and that makes me feel even worse.  I try to get him to go every 20- 30 minutes and he will scream NO POTTY, so I don't want to force him and make him totally hate the idea ! As you know when I met Paul the boys were 6months -2- and 3 1/2 and neither one was potty trained. I made it a point to train them . The oldest one was tough but finally he did it in a few weeks. I gave them a skittle if they peed and a dum dum lollipop for bowel movements. The youngest one was potty trained by the time he was 19 months old. So what is my problem now. AM I subconsciously wanting to keep Aiden a baby because I know he is going to be my only living biological child and I am not ready to let the baby phase go ?? Or am I just lazy ??
     Last week I took 4 pregnancy tests because my cycle was 5 days late and they were all negative. I as thrilled to become pregnant spontaneously but since I had the miscarriage I kind of wish it wouldn't have happened. Because now I am gonna wonder every month and I am always checking my CM for signs. It's like being back on the TTC roller coaster again.  +