Progesterone Cream ???

So last month and July I decided to try using a natural progesterone cream to see if it would help me to regulate my cycles and improve my PCOS. WOW July was the trial month and I used a 1/2 teaspoon nightly ( which as I later learned was twice what I should have used). I rubbed it into differet areas each night for 14 nights--Goodness gracious I was a hormonal nightmare.. I was grouchy and irritable and I could hardly stand myself , so I have no idea how my husband and children tolerated me that two weeks . Plus I used it too early before ovulation . However the following month I used 1/4 teaspoon nightly only after ovulation and I think it worked because on cycle day 14 I actuallt got a positive OPK, and I had several other signs of ovulation --that is not normal for me with my PCOS - ok of course I did get pregnant on my own in December , I attribute that to the weight loss and the fact that it helped normalize my cycles for me . So after some research I learned that the progesterone can help improve my endometriosis as well as my luteal phase defect. This month I also had many signs of ovulation and a positive OPK PLUS my period began on day 15 -- It was one day late because I was still taking the progesterone --just to make sure that the HPY was actually negative, I also have an issue with my progesterone levels during pregnancy and have to use crinone gel. That's part of the reason that I think I miscarried in February , because I didn't know that I was pregnant and didn't use any progesterone ... sad that we learn these things when it's too late to make a difference --  so with all this effort you are probably wondering if I am back to TTC-- weeeellllll in a sense yes but not to the point that I am gonna seek medical assistance if it doesn't work out.. I LOVED the joys and even the disconforts of pregnancy with Aiden, and I was so excited when I learned that I was pregnant in January , but I am trying to be content with the miracle that I got to experience with Aiden and be content.. I would like to pursue adoption or maybe even foster care, But I feel selfish in a way, like I am not being grateful for the blessing that I already have ...