nothing

so 3 months after surgery and -50 lbs almost and still no normal period ..when is this uspposed to happen after weight loss. All I kept hearing from dr's was lose weight and it will improve you fertility --really well I have and nothign yet suckers ----How long do I have to wait, I'm not getting any younger here people..and lets face it chasing a baby at my age is getting tougher everyday.  I know that the diabetes is reversed but I am thinking that all the hype about PCOS being reversed if you lose at least 10% of your body weight is just that HYPE. Maybe I am wrong and now my issue is from the endometriosis.As soon as I start a cycle I will do the lupron and maybe that will help the endometriosis.Just my luck though as soon as I think I am getting one condition under control that is impeding my fertility another becomes the main reason for concern,
 I wonder if I could go back to the RE and go straight to an IUI cycle or would I have to go through all the other stuff and be like a new patient--I don't have the time or the funds for all that again--another surgery for endometrial ablation would proabbaly help me too, but I am thinking that the insurance will not pay for that again unless my Ob/GYN suggests it ---hmm maybe the one little miracle is all I get in this lifetime. And I am starting to accept it and be grateful because I know that some women do not even get that. I could have easily been one of the women who no mater what we tried it just didn't work out the wya we dreamed. My pregnancy was such a struggle to get him here at a safe time and keep him in their until he was ready. After losing Allison ot incompetent cervix I know the heartache that could happen . I miss her so much some days --and I try really hard to be grateful for the 20 weeks I got to have her little soul growing inside me--I always tell her I am so sorry that I didn't save her or know more about what was happening  --and some days I really really dislike the dr who sent me home and said I was fine --I would like to just sit with him and ask him why ?????? but because so many people are scared of lawsuits and stuff I just knwo that wouldn't be an option --and after a few months I learned he had been fired from the practice . yes I made a complaint and asked t=my case to be reviewed and wanted answers but at them time I was mostly looking for someone else to take the blame so that I wouldn;t feel so guilty.

normal cylce ????

yesterday I thought maybe I was going to start my menstral cycle without the help of provera..just a little spotting gave me big hopes --odd --seeing as how that spotting usually depresses me . But I took a pregnancy test last week and it was negative and as we all know , nothing can bring on a period like taking a hpt..at least not for me anyway. today nothing but some cramping which is usually debilitating with endometriosis. I am wondering if weight loss helps that condition like it does PCOS, haven't noticed much change in either condition and I have lost 44 pounds..I thought it only took 10% to make a difference.
Had to go to a baby shower sunday, and i was happy for her and hid my inner anguish of wishing I was the one who was getting hte gifts and looking so big and pregnant .
another cousin is also pregnant.also ...
So I am trying so hard to be happy and not concentrate on the fact that it isn't me